When The Clouds Open

When the skies become dark
And the rays are fighting hard
To find a way to permeate to the ground
I look up to see the envelope
That seeps through my mood
Somber in its feel, a sniffle on the build
Eye to eye all that meets is a blanket
Black as the hole, grey as the smoke
Fluffed at the center, with a silver tint
That glows at the far edges
Beyond the horizon

It’s when the clouds open
I see a face on the far left
Look down upon me with a grimace
Pain in the look and a pout in shape
Like I perceive it
Yet there’s serenity on the hold
From the sparkles that filter from much above
Blessing the parting formation
At the crest of the darkness

The wider I open myself
I see the pit down below
While disbelief and dismay catches the better of me
Quick as the lightening
I crinkle my forehead
And close myself tight
But now I see the silver lining
Sharp is the glow
Abruptly forcing to open up

A hesitant sounding head
Unsure what it will encounter
When the eyes meet once again
Of the self and the Lord

Stands surprised
Of a face bathing with kindness
Assuring a passage
That lies amidst
A glistening silver bay




Addiction As They Say

The smell of it intoxicates my brain
I can feel my throbbing pulse push my body out
The pressure more than what I can handle
Pushing me to the edge of a burst out
I can feel it falling apart
How badly I still try to hold it tight

The warm blood racing through my mind and to my heart
Burning me from within the flames of angst
As desperation strengthens its grip over me
The desire to get it just this one time for the craving
Tomorrow would begin the process of halting the compulsion
And the thousands of time I go over it in my head
Of not falling to temptations

The mere sight and sense of which
Makes me weak from inside
The inner drool for want of more
Despite the waste it creates of me
And the hollow dump that keeps pilling up

The restlessness when I strive past its prick
The gasping moment of rejection
A dejected me with my soul synchronizing to the tear
Of the crossover the stab dug on my chest

Killing life forms inside out
Screaming my insecurity at the picking hand
Broken hearts of people who care for me
Shattered dreams, I once built for self

Addiction as they say
Kills it all
Much before the coffin closes at the face