This Little Prayer I Say

On stormy dark nights,
And new mornings
Busy afternoons,
And scuffling through evenings
I am afraid of
This little prayer I say
In my mind
“If it’s good for me, make it stay
If not, let it go”

My heart wrenches the next moment
As the roads get empty
Paving the storms to build inside
When the prayer gets answered



Beneath the strong exterior
Lies a vulnerable interior
Beneath the steady heart
Lies a weak pulse
Come closer, pull the mask of a stern face
And you shall find a tearful child
Waiting to be hugged and made yours
Tugging away, only as she reminds herself
The world is a battle field
Not for the weak
She shields herself yet again
Masked soul and stealth shoulders
Marching ahead without flinching an eyelid

Love Chemicals

Did I invite something

I thought
As I stepped in your car
Uncertainty looming around
Like the nimbus cloud

Nervous I glanced at you
Gulping hard, remembering how you’d defined the date

The first hug, and I leapt
The back of your knuckle traversing down my wrist
The intertwining of our fingers
Sparking a bolt of electricity through me
It felt being home
As your arm went round my waist
And you pulled me closer
To where I could hear you breathe

My heart raced
As you placed your hand over mine
The ease with which you held it steadfast
The wheel and the move
I grimaced and closed my eyes
We kissed
And it felt home yet again

You gazed into my eyes and I let you in
Baring a piece of my soul
For you to touch
Before I knew, I was flushing hot
And you mirrored it

That moment when I desired you
More than the obvious
Strengthened in thought
When it felt home again
As we crossed those ogling eyes

That night sleep evaded
However hard I tried
My subconscious obediently outlining a silhouette
Love chemicals striking me
Left, right and center
I loved the smell of you on me
The way it felt when your skin touched mine
The tenderness in your eyes
Said to myself,
I would do everything I have in me, to keep you

My waking to my last thought before I sleep
Is all about you and me
I still smell you
When I close my eyes and focus
So many conversations among us,
And the desire to become one

Frightened whether it’s lust that arouses me
Or it’s stronger than the passing storm

I see light when I see you
And it feels like home again
When you hold me close to your chest
Kiss me passionately
And look at me with those tender eyes

Meekly I agree within
There is an ache
That refuses to go
Which can’t tell what lays ahead

Glad that the heart took a lead
Secured the one third
Forming a pact with the brain
To do all it can to keep you